Thursday, March 30, 2006
sports day. i think i got last for 200m. hahaha. pathetic man. was doing stretching then suddenly leg become very pain. think was due to that time sports heat. haven't fully recover. sian man! then i run half way was like ouch ouch ouch. so pain lor. finish liao quickly go main post apply deep heat rub. and now it is still damn pain. but the good thing is can be excused from pe. yeah man! hahhaha. hope i will recover soon.
Friday, March 24, 2006
today got sports day heats. starting i super nervous. cause i running 200m. then all the competitors like so fast liddat. later get last very pai seh that kind of thing. yeah. so i prayed to God, saying it doesn't matter if i win or lose. its just particpation. and asked Him to put in me peace. and YAY. and that i was okay liao. not nervous anymore. praise God. He answers (: then was sitting there waiting for my event. then sui bian observe my sjab girls. see whether they can manage that kind of thing. was really upset with them. got one person run finish liao, squat at the side like want to vomit liao. they just look and don't care. what the heck la. cannot even approach the person meh. its just like a few steps away. terrible man. okay whatever. then finally need to go for the 200m. i never feel nervous at all. maybe abit la. then prepare the GO! hahhaa. i run. then was leading (: but after a while tired liao. so slow down abit. but stil leading (: then finally reached the finish line. i got first =D was super surprised. well, i believe its God. that gave me the strength to run. i really didn't expect myself to get first leh. hahaha. running that time my shirt keep coming up. then have to pull down. then after that kamilah leg strain. then help her apply the deep heat rub. so tired lor. just run finish nia. then apply half way then need to report for the 4x100. i was like so tired liao. my legs also like no strength. but just ran lor. and got second (: 4h got first. then blah blah blah events. then 8x100. actually i not running one. but then sarah's leg very pain. so no choice have to replace her. was super super tired. got second last. hahha. then after that is 800m. jasmine and huixian take part. not sure which position they got. cause was busy treating the casualties. one got headache and cannot breathe properly. yeah. the other one more serious, not sure what happened to her. she cannot breathe properly and like keep shouting liddat. yeah. they took so long recover. after that meet my sister for dinner. ate long john. yum yum. hahah. then the coke so pathetic little lor. 3/4 of the cup is ice lor. hahaa. so i asked for refill. and they did! yay. hahaha.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
A dream that summed up what Jesus Christ did for me and for you. Got it from a storybook.
THE ROOM
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, i found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features save for the one wall covered with small index-card files.
They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As i drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read "Girls I Have Liked." I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that i recognized all the names written on each one.
And without begin told, I knew exactly where i was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of every moment, big and samll, in a detail my memory couldn't match.
A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their contents. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that i would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching. A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I Have Betrayed."
The titles ranged from mundane to the outright weird: "Books I have read." "Lies I Have Told," "Comfort I Have Given," "Jokes I have Laughed At." Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I've Yelled at My Brothers." Others I couldn't laugh at: "Things I Have Done iIn Anger," "Things I Have Muttered under My breath at My Parents." I never ceased to be surprised by the contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes there were fewer than I hoped.
I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my twenty years to write each of these thousands. possibly millions, of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.
When I pulled out the file marked "Songs I Have Listened To," I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or there yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of music, but more by the vast amount of time I knew that file represented.
When I came to a file marked "Lustful Thoughts," I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed contents. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded.
Suddenly I felt an almost animal rage. One thought dominated my mind: "No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!" In an insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as i took the file at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when i tried to tear it.
Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long self-pitying sigh. Ands then I saw it. The title bore "People I Have Shared The Gospel With." The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.
And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that the hurt started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key.
But then as i pushed away the tears, I saw Him. No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus.
I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worse boxes. Why did He have to read every one?
Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands, and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.
Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card.
"No!" I shouted, rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no," as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood.
He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and continued to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hands on my shoulder and said, "It is finished."
I stood up, He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its dooer. There were still cards to be written.
This is more than a heart-warming story. It's not imaginary. The dream is a picture of what Christ truly accomplosed when He died on the cross. He literally took our guilt on Himself. And this meant much more than just having His name on a card. It meant receiving the punishment from God that all those sinful words and actions deserved.
Here is what's imprtant to understand: It is only by repenting of our sins and putting our faith is Christ that this substituition can take place. We each have a "room" containing of all our sinful deeds and thoughts. But just because we admit this or feel bad about it doesn't mean we're forgiven. Remorse can't save anyome. Only faith in Christ can. Only turst in His death and resurrection for us.
Monday, March 20, 2006
GOD'S CAKE (:
Sometimes we wonder,
"What did I do to deserve this?"
"Why did God have to do this to me?"
Here is a wonderful explanation!
A daughter was telling her Mother how everything was going wrong. She failed her Maths exam, her boyfriend had broken up with her and her best friend was moving away. Meanwhile, her Mother was baking a cake and asked her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter said,
"Absolutely Mum, I love your cake."
"Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offered.
"Yuck" said her daughter.
"How about a couple raw eggs?"
"Revolting, Mum!"
Would you like some flour then?
Or maybe some baking soda?"
"Mum, those things are all yucky!"
To which the mother replied: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful! God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every Spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the Universe, and He chose your heart. Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.
Friday, March 17, 2006
okay. finally had my lunch. so full. bought the chilli crab flavour. hot manx. my lips are like burning lor. i'm bored. nothing to do. lalala. anyway, please don't sms me anymore. for this month. cause i won't reply. unless i feel like. hahaha. cause my message explode liao. so ya. anything call me.
y e s t e r d a ycos hui chi haven't eat dinner yet. so after tuition i meet her to eat lor. and i ate another combo one. so fattening. so oily. sick manx. then eating that time, hui chi ask me whether she think alot anot. cos she think the witches at night would come and eat her becos she think she very yummy. and the ghost want to scare her becos want to see her frightened face -.- and the dolls in her cupboard also. so duh la. she seriously think soo much lor. then go home liao. reached home around 1030 liddat. quickly sneaked into my room. then read story book. then around 1125 my daddy was like, "why weiyi haven't come back yet?" hahhaa. they don't know i'm in my room already. oh whatever.
t o d a ywent for st john training. sian manx. suppose to reach school by 8am. but 8am, i'm still slping on my bed. oops. didn't hear my alarm. weird. then jocelyn keep calling me. ARGHH. disturbed my wonderful sleep. then no choice, go training lor. very boring. later have to go church. for one fine day meeting. abit lazy la. i'm so hungry. i'm alone at home. haven't eat my lunch yet. i also dont know what to cook. arggh. think later go mini mart buy cup noodles eat liao lor.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
today went cycling with hui chi, irene, jane, hui xian, collin and vincent. actually collin and vincent say never come one. but suddenly pop out. yeah. cycle for 2 hours nia. we went to the beach also. the water so cooling. and i forget to bring camera again. arggh!!! then ate dinner with hui chi at long john silver. yum yum.
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
ignite was great. wen jin accepted Christ. praise God (: yeah manx. so happy. tmr going cycling. YAY. haven't really bond with my close friends for a looong while. well. sorry guys. i don't know if u guys feel this way but i think i kinda neglected you all right? because i'm always busy with church. just want to let you know. that i love you all also! you all will always be my great friends (:
Friday, March 10, 2006
today was quite a sad day for me. not really sad la. i just feel down. don't feel like talking or smiling. think its because of my results. my poor results. that's why lor. never really talk. i'm just moody today.
Thursday, March 09, 2006
today after school went senoko incineration plant. we went inside the room. then tell us why have incineration plant then show us video. then after that go and explore the place. then go take lift to see where they dumb all the garbage and burn la. the lift sooo smelly lor. i almost vomit. then hui chi say my face become red. it was horrible. super horrible. when we reach that place. so much rubbish lor. the person say about 10feet. siao. then i told hui chi, really can swim in the garbage liao. hahaha. aiyaa. don't know what to blog liao. tata.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
i miss gong gong.
thank God for weijie. at least now he have the drive to bring his friends for cellgroup and church. very good. will we really reach 12 by end of this week? somehow, i have disbelief. bad bad. i am
Faith! how can i have disbelief? aiyooo. bad bad. *shakes head* i don't know why. i like english remedials. somehow, i think its interesting. hahaha. but other people all think boring leh. weird eh? oh whatever. go study liao. bye people.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
today is a boring day. almost the whole day free period. boring boring. well. the chocolate was obviously a failure. after so many days, it is still left rotting in my fridge. -.- and the taste so weird one. i think better throw away liao lor. take up space.
oh no. somebody have a crush on me. guess who? the person is hui chi! why? she siao one lor. got so many of my photos. don't know where she get also. thenkeep putting as her display picture. siao manx! she's obsessed about me! hahahha. sorry hui chi. but i'm not interested la. hhahaha.
today don't know why. suddenly feel so depressed. weird. but whatever. reach home, do QT. then okay liao. but after a while, depressed again. cause my parents scolded me. tired of their nagging. really have to show them i'm studying. don't keep using computer. i think my dad is going to nag at wendy during driving lesson. sorry wendy. then start doing homework lor. revise a bit. i seriously have to catch up. all my subjects are so horrible. arghh.
Thursday, March 02, 2006
arggh! i'm going mad. my house is so damn noisy. firstly, i was sleeping so soundly. then my sisters and my mother one by one come in my room and call me to wake up. and i hate it when people disturb me when i'm sleeping. in school also. ahhhh! secondly, when i wake up already. my sister was talking on the phone. so LOUDLY. its like so noisy lor. as it the person is so far away. -.- thirdly, okay. she put down phone already. then she cannot find her coloured contact lens. she started screaming asking if anyone of us took her contact lens. then started to quarrel with my mother over this issue. okay. then she went out already. i thought finally i can have peace. but no. my mother started nagging at me. my gosh. i'm going mad. keep quiet la!
okay. end of the noise. YAY. PEACE.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
i finally dropped poa. yay! no more poa. so happy. i shall work harder for my other subjects now. but i am just so lazy. everyday slack at home. bad bad. must force myself to study. today make chocolate with weihui. quite fun. no idea whether it is a success or not. haven't tasted the chocolate yet. hopefully it will be a success.
let there be salvations this saturday.
let the people come.
Father, draw all men to You.
let those lost souls be found again.
really need to pray hard.
burden.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
sports day. i think i got last for 200m. hahaha. pathetic man. was doing stretching then suddenly leg become very pain. think was due to that time sports heat. haven't fully recover. sian man! then i run half way was like ouch ouch ouch. so pain lor. finish liao quickly go main post apply deep heat rub. and now it is still damn pain. but the good thing is can be excused from pe. yeah man! hahhaha. hope i will recover soon.
Friday, March 24, 2006
today got sports day heats. starting i super nervous. cause i running 200m. then all the competitors like so fast liddat. later get last very pai seh that kind of thing. yeah. so i prayed to God, saying it doesn't matter if i win or lose. its just particpation. and asked Him to put in me peace. and YAY. and that i was okay liao. not nervous anymore. praise God. He answers (: then was sitting there waiting for my event. then sui bian observe my sjab girls. see whether they can manage that kind of thing. was really upset with them. got one person run finish liao, squat at the side like want to vomit liao. they just look and don't care. what the heck la. cannot even approach the person meh. its just like a few steps away. terrible man. okay whatever. then finally need to go for the 200m. i never feel nervous at all. maybe abit la. then prepare the GO! hahhaa. i run. then was leading (: but after a while tired liao. so slow down abit. but stil leading (: then finally reached the finish line. i got first =D was super surprised. well, i believe its God. that gave me the strength to run. i really didn't expect myself to get first leh. hahaha. running that time my shirt keep coming up. then have to pull down. then after that kamilah leg strain. then help her apply the deep heat rub. so tired lor. just run finish nia. then apply half way then need to report for the 4x100. i was like so tired liao. my legs also like no strength. but just ran lor. and got second (: 4h got first. then blah blah blah events. then 8x100. actually i not running one. but then sarah's leg very pain. so no choice have to replace her. was super super tired. got second last. hahha. then after that is 800m. jasmine and huixian take part. not sure which position they got. cause was busy treating the casualties. one got headache and cannot breathe properly. yeah. the other one more serious, not sure what happened to her. she cannot breathe properly and like keep shouting liddat. yeah. they took so long recover. after that meet my sister for dinner. ate long john. yum yum. hahah. then the coke so pathetic little lor. 3/4 of the cup is ice lor. hahaa. so i asked for refill. and they did! yay. hahaha.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
A dream that summed up what Jesus Christ did for me and for you. Got it from a storybook.
THE ROOM
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, i found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features save for the one wall covered with small index-card files.
They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As i drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read "Girls I Have Liked." I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that i recognized all the names written on each one.
And without begin told, I knew exactly where i was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of every moment, big and samll, in a detail my memory couldn't match.
A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their contents. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that i would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching. A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I Have Betrayed."
The titles ranged from mundane to the outright weird: "Books I have read." "Lies I Have Told," "Comfort I Have Given," "Jokes I have Laughed At." Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I've Yelled at My Brothers." Others I couldn't laugh at: "Things I Have Done iIn Anger," "Things I Have Muttered under My breath at My Parents." I never ceased to be surprised by the contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes there were fewer than I hoped.
I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my twenty years to write each of these thousands. possibly millions, of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.
When I pulled out the file marked "Songs I Have Listened To," I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or there yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of music, but more by the vast amount of time I knew that file represented.
When I came to a file marked "Lustful Thoughts," I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed contents. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded.
Suddenly I felt an almost animal rage. One thought dominated my mind: "No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!" In an insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as i took the file at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when i tried to tear it.
Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long self-pitying sigh. Ands then I saw it. The title bore "People I Have Shared The Gospel With." The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.
And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that the hurt started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key.
But then as i pushed away the tears, I saw Him. No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus.
I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worse boxes. Why did He have to read every one?
Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands, and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.
Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card.
"No!" I shouted, rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no," as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood.
He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and continued to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hands on my shoulder and said, "It is finished."
I stood up, He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its dooer. There were still cards to be written.
This is more than a heart-warming story. It's not imaginary. The dream is a picture of what Christ truly accomplosed when He died on the cross. He literally took our guilt on Himself. And this meant much more than just having His name on a card. It meant receiving the punishment from God that all those sinful words and actions deserved.
Here is what's imprtant to understand: It is only by repenting of our sins and putting our faith is Christ that this substituition can take place. We each have a "room" containing of all our sinful deeds and thoughts. But just because we admit this or feel bad about it doesn't mean we're forgiven. Remorse can't save anyome. Only faith in Christ can. Only turst in His death and resurrection for us.
Monday, March 20, 2006
GOD'S CAKE (:
Sometimes we wonder,
"What did I do to deserve this?"
"Why did God have to do this to me?"
Here is a wonderful explanation!
A daughter was telling her Mother how everything was going wrong. She failed her Maths exam, her boyfriend had broken up with her and her best friend was moving away. Meanwhile, her Mother was baking a cake and asked her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter said,
"Absolutely Mum, I love your cake."
"Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offered.
"Yuck" said her daughter.
"How about a couple raw eggs?"
"Revolting, Mum!"
Would you like some flour then?
Or maybe some baking soda?"
"Mum, those things are all yucky!"
To which the mother replied: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful! God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every Spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the Universe, and He chose your heart. Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.
Friday, March 17, 2006
okay. finally had my lunch. so full. bought the chilli crab flavour. hot manx. my lips are like burning lor. i'm bored. nothing to do. lalala. anyway, please don't sms me anymore. for this month. cause i won't reply. unless i feel like. hahaha. cause my message explode liao. so ya. anything call me.
y e s t e r d a ycos hui chi haven't eat dinner yet. so after tuition i meet her to eat lor. and i ate another combo one. so fattening. so oily. sick manx. then eating that time, hui chi ask me whether she think alot anot. cos she think the witches at night would come and eat her becos she think she very yummy. and the ghost want to scare her becos want to see her frightened face -.- and the dolls in her cupboard also. so duh la. she seriously think soo much lor. then go home liao. reached home around 1030 liddat. quickly sneaked into my room. then read story book. then around 1125 my daddy was like, "why weiyi haven't come back yet?" hahhaa. they don't know i'm in my room already. oh whatever.
t o d a ywent for st john training. sian manx. suppose to reach school by 8am. but 8am, i'm still slping on my bed. oops. didn't hear my alarm. weird. then jocelyn keep calling me. ARGHH. disturbed my wonderful sleep. then no choice, go training lor. very boring. later have to go church. for one fine day meeting. abit lazy la. i'm so hungry. i'm alone at home. haven't eat my lunch yet. i also dont know what to cook. arggh. think later go mini mart buy cup noodles eat liao lor.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
today went cycling with hui chi, irene, jane, hui xian, collin and vincent. actually collin and vincent say never come one. but suddenly pop out. yeah. cycle for 2 hours nia. we went to the beach also. the water so cooling. and i forget to bring camera again. arggh!!! then ate dinner with hui chi at long john silver. yum yum.
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
ignite was great. wen jin accepted Christ. praise God (: yeah manx. so happy. tmr going cycling. YAY. haven't really bond with my close friends for a looong while. well. sorry guys. i don't know if u guys feel this way but i think i kinda neglected you all right? because i'm always busy with church. just want to let you know. that i love you all also! you all will always be my great friends (:
Friday, March 10, 2006
today was quite a sad day for me. not really sad la. i just feel down. don't feel like talking or smiling. think its because of my results. my poor results. that's why lor. never really talk. i'm just moody today.
Thursday, March 09, 2006
today after school went senoko incineration plant. we went inside the room. then tell us why have incineration plant then show us video. then after that go and explore the place. then go take lift to see where they dumb all the garbage and burn la. the lift sooo smelly lor. i almost vomit. then hui chi say my face become red. it was horrible. super horrible. when we reach that place. so much rubbish lor. the person say about 10feet. siao. then i told hui chi, really can swim in the garbage liao. hahaha. aiyaa. don't know what to blog liao. tata.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
i miss gong gong.
thank God for weijie. at least now he have the drive to bring his friends for cellgroup and church. very good. will we really reach 12 by end of this week? somehow, i have disbelief. bad bad. i am
Faith! how can i have disbelief? aiyooo. bad bad. *shakes head* i don't know why. i like english remedials. somehow, i think its interesting. hahaha. but other people all think boring leh. weird eh? oh whatever. go study liao. bye people.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
today is a boring day. almost the whole day free period. boring boring. well. the chocolate was obviously a failure. after so many days, it is still left rotting in my fridge. -.- and the taste so weird one. i think better throw away liao lor. take up space.
oh no. somebody have a crush on me. guess who? the person is hui chi! why? she siao one lor. got so many of my photos. don't know where she get also. thenkeep putting as her display picture. siao manx! she's obsessed about me! hahahha. sorry hui chi. but i'm not interested la. hhahaha.
today don't know why. suddenly feel so depressed. weird. but whatever. reach home, do QT. then okay liao. but after a while, depressed again. cause my parents scolded me. tired of their nagging. really have to show them i'm studying. don't keep using computer. i think my dad is going to nag at wendy during driving lesson. sorry wendy. then start doing homework lor. revise a bit. i seriously have to catch up. all my subjects are so horrible. arghh.
Thursday, March 02, 2006
arggh! i'm going mad. my house is so damn noisy. firstly, i was sleeping so soundly. then my sisters and my mother one by one come in my room and call me to wake up. and i hate it when people disturb me when i'm sleeping. in school also. ahhhh! secondly, when i wake up already. my sister was talking on the phone. so LOUDLY. its like so noisy lor. as it the person is so far away. -.- thirdly, okay. she put down phone already. then she cannot find her coloured contact lens. she started screaming asking if anyone of us took her contact lens. then started to quarrel with my mother over this issue. okay. then she went out already. i thought finally i can have peace. but no. my mother started nagging at me. my gosh. i'm going mad. keep quiet la!
okay. end of the noise. YAY. PEACE.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
i finally dropped poa. yay! no more poa. so happy. i shall work harder for my other subjects now. but i am just so lazy. everyday slack at home. bad bad. must force myself to study. today make chocolate with weihui. quite fun. no idea whether it is a success or not. haven't tasted the chocolate yet. hopefully it will be a success.
let there be salvations this saturday.
let the people come.
Father, draw all men to You.
let those lost souls be found again.
really need to pray hard.
burden.
